Feeling

I pray to god
the one I believe is real
that one day
I would understand
the way I feel
the way I am
the way I live

I want to feel
the way I want to
feel.

the way I need to feel.

The way I wish I felt.

so please. God, I wish.

cry

I want
but cannot reach
I reach
but cannot touch
I touch
and everything crumbles

I want to cry
but cannot let the tears fall
I want to scream
but there is no soundproof room
I want to destroy
but not everything is breakable

I am stuck
and I hate it
I am caged
and I hate it
I am hollow
and I hate it
I hate.
I cry.

Does it help?

no.

Take a.

Take a flower
touch the petal
feel the soft feeling
brush against
your fingertips
velvety like
soft material

Take a breath
of the amazing
sunset
and the scent
of a million flowers
surrounding you

Take a look
at the vast variety of colours
and the open sky above you
and the beautiful landscape around you

Lastly,
take my hand
and smile your smile
the one I love so,
and let me
show you
with open eyes
and open arms
what the world really is.