Another round

i do some weird things. jumping from the stairs is one of them .

pennies

I have just seen the half of a giant dead bee that my mom has kept and forgotten to tell me about. Its on the end of the keyboard. Its freaky. Ha ha. God. I've just exceeded my credit limit by fifty percent which means I've spent 168. Shit. argh dammit. I didn't expect that from just smsing. eh heeh. I have to stop then. HEllo facebook.

I've got writers block. Again. And Again. and AGain. I can't write much... ugh.

empty

I ... don't know. I don't think. I don't eat, sleep, walk, talk, breathe. I can't see. I can't smell. I can't hear the birds chirp. I can't touch the velvet soft of my cloak.

I am dead.





I hate you. I hate me. I hate this world. I hate love.

with. out. you.

I can't see you. I can't feel you. I can't smell you. There's no warmth. No smile. No soft laughter. There's no feeling of happiness. There's only a cold dread. As I search and search and find nothing instead. Of you.

I miss you

gone.

Your gone. Your warmth, the scent you gave off. The smile. The laughter. The silly comments you messaged. The lame jokes that made me laugh. The happiness that you brought with you. Everywhere you went. Your messages are all thats left. My inbox hasn't been updated in days.

Did I chase you off?

life. beside you.

I stand beside you staring at the floor. I can feel you beside me shifting. I can smell your warm home smell. I can see your toes wiggling on the floor. I want to look up and match your eyes. I want to see you smile back down. I want to be the warmth beside you.

I'm begining to think being your friend hurts. Because everytime i look at you, you see right through me. Then I know I haven't a chance.

I love you.

drawing. here. sitting. in. your. heart.

I wanna lean on your shoulder. I wanna breathe in your smell. It's like standing in a grassy field surrounded by trees when your around. I wanna make you smile and look at me when you do. I wanna hear you laugh and make that funny face you do. I wanna know your relaxed when i'm around with you.

I want you.