empty

I ... don't know. I don't think. I don't eat, sleep, walk, talk, breathe. I can't see. I can't smell. I can't hear the birds chirp. I can't touch the velvet soft of my cloak.

I am dead.





I hate you. I hate me. I hate this world. I hate love.

with. out. you.

I can't see you. I can't feel you. I can't smell you. There's no warmth. No smile. No soft laughter. There's no feeling of happiness. There's only a cold dread. As I search and search and find nothing instead. Of you.

I miss you

gone.

Your gone. Your warmth, the scent you gave off. The smile. The laughter. The silly comments you messaged. The lame jokes that made me laugh. The happiness that you brought with you. Everywhere you went. Your messages are all thats left. My inbox hasn't been updated in days.

Did I chase you off?

life. beside you.

I stand beside you staring at the floor. I can feel you beside me shifting. I can smell your warm home smell. I can see your toes wiggling on the floor. I want to look up and match your eyes. I want to see you smile back down. I want to be the warmth beside you.

I'm begining to think being your friend hurts. Because everytime i look at you, you see right through me. Then I know I haven't a chance.

I love you.

drawing. here. sitting. in. your. heart.

I wanna lean on your shoulder. I wanna breathe in your smell. It's like standing in a grassy field surrounded by trees when your around. I wanna make you smile and look at me when you do. I wanna hear you laugh and make that funny face you do. I wanna know your relaxed when i'm around with you.

I want you.

FOREVER&ALWAYS : BREATHE

I like Taylor Swift's song. T_T I never thought I'd see the day when I'd like her songs. But sometimes everyone just needs a very cliched song. They're sweet but very commercial. I've just created another blog. For my story since I've forgotten my fictionpress password....

www.foreveralwaysbreathe.blogspot.com

=D please visit. If you read this. Hehe. Hopefully someone's reading this.

Lately I've been stuck in a good mood. But I get more tired as the day go on. I can't wake up without feeling pain. I can't smile without feeling my face sag. I feel down and yet elated half the time.

Yesterday, stayed up late, collaging my wall. It's not done but it looks good. Will post picture.

Posted a story(FINALLY) on fanfiction.net. Ugh took so long. Seriously. Its called White Shadows. A HPDM. I'm a huge fan. ha ha. SSRL and BZNL as well. heheheh. and a Hermione fan. Whoevers a fan out there PLEASE READ IT! Thx.

Z